“Life’s not fair”–a mantra I heard frequently growing up. And I truly believe that not only is life not fair, but that actually life was not created with a concept of “fair”. The Bible speaks of justice, not fairness–of a perfect God, justified wrath, and of the unfathomable grace created by Christ receiving our punishment before God. We humans cannot stand before the crushing weight of justice… cannot stand before a perfect and loving God with no sin. Moses had to hide in the cleft of a rock with his face shielded by God to even allow God to pass by; Elijah covered his face when approaching a cave just to talk to God. The Israelites cowered from the remnants of God’s glory left on a glowing Moses.
In our weakness, fear, and pride, humans created this fairness god–that our goodness should somehow be measured against other humans; should be relative. Because I do not have a weakness as destructive as my neighbor’s, that I should somehow have a better life or am a better Christian. Because I have already suffered greatly, I should never suffer again. Because I walk with God, I should be spared pain. Because I absorbed great wrongs, I should receive gratitude and repentance.
“The woman gave me the fruit, and you gave her to me,” said the man–in the very first sin, the actual fall of humanity, we were perverting and diluting justice into fairness. Like all perversions of a perfect creation and a perfect standard, this fairness concept slowly destroys us, as surely as any other perversion destroys us–food used to fill our God-given emotional hunger, alcohol used to numb our God-given sensitivity, or promiscuity used to fill our God-given need for love. Our fairness entitlement creates only anger, disappointment, and brokenness.
Creation groans against this fairness heresy–even nonbelievers recognize that it falls short, that it is impossible to attain–that it only causes sorrow, bitterness, and blame. Some of the kindest people have the most unkind lives. Some of the people who work the hardest fail the most. Some of the most generous people receive the least. A woman who barely escaped from the World Trade Center during 911 died two months later on the doomed American Airlines Flight 589. This unfairness takes my breath away, even as I speak against the whole concept of fairness.
Fairness dismisses grace and puts our salvation into our helpless hands. “God doesn’t want you to have the knowledge of good and evil,” hissed the serpent. That’s not fair. And thus began the destruction of the world.
Fairness distracts us from justice and the need for grace–deceives us into thinking that we have some power in our salvation, that we are not wholly dependent on God’s mercy and grace. I can never earn even the smallest fraction of the forgiveness needed to cover how much I fall short every day in the justice equation. Only Christ’s suffering, death, and resurrection in my place can stand up under the weight of true justice.
Yes, I want to correct the evils of the world, to live as much like Jesus as possible, but only because I want to be like the One I love. These feeble efforts do not save me, or even move me toward safety. Only God’s grace freely given saves me, and that’s not at all fair. Thank God.